Friends

So last night wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I think the fact that I was very hungover helped a lot as I was too exhausted to think about what he would be doing and what things would have been like if we were still together. Instead I made myself some soup, grabbed a comforter and sat on my sofa watching TV until it was time to go to bed.

One thing this whole period has taught me is that I have some bloody amazing friends. I knew they were special, but the way everyone has called, emailed and texted me to make sure I am okay has made me see that there is more to life than loving a boy who will never love me the way I love him. That there are people out there who think I am special enough to spend time with and if he can't see that, well, then he doesn't deserve to be in my life.

The girls...
JR - my fellow loop queen who can lift my spirits with a single, cruel, sharply delivered line.
MT - a proper grown-up mum of three who still finds the time to call me in between ferrying her daughters to various classes and writing her book.
KK - from whom I get wisdom, a sense of perspective and confidence that there is nothing wrong with me.
LMN - Half the world away from me her grasp on the important things in life have made me see sense when I've been wallowing in a pool of self-pity.

Then there are the boys...
SW - spectacled and witty, warm and ever optimistic, he gives me hope
GL -who pretends he doesn't care and constantly tries to get in my pants but has a heart of gold and a well-hidden caring side.
AL - A fellow Arsenal fan (I use that word loosely when it comes to describing myself) and cricket lover with the driest sense of humour.
JM - giver of great hugs and cuddles and president of the 'Let's fatten Clarke up' club.
GAL - his wide boy tales and cheeky chappy persona belie hidden depths. Also has a tendency to flash me when I least expect it.
PM - vice-president of the 'Let's fatten Clarke up' club, he cooks me lovely food, kisses my forehead every time he comes home and has gone out of his way to make sure I am okay.
LJM - Moody, irritable with no social skills or graces. But has all the time in the world for me. Who ferries me to the station when I cannot be bothered to walk. Who brings me eggs and omelette ingredients when he knows I haven't had time to go shopping. Who calls at least once a week and will always be a part of my life.
G-P-B-K - My favourite boy. Ever.

And then there's Lois. And she knows how I feel about her.

I am a lucky girl. I really am.

Clarke x